Jason

People change, and as cliche’ goes… "the only thing
permanent in the world is change." But people fear change. It’s natural to
be wary of things uncommon and unusual. We are comforted by what is constant,
since it gives us a sense of security.

I’ve been bugged by the realization that I’ve been shunning
away from anything that gets me too emotional. I know I’ve been raving about
this for quite some time now. (see my previous posts)  Well, that’s me… Cold? Bitter? Cynical? Burned?
 Choose your pick… And that has left me
on the defensive.

And therein comes the dilemma… I long for love, passion,
relationship and commitment, yet I can’t seem to break away from this defensive
state that I’m in. It may be seem convenient at first, but being all walled up
gets to be quite a pain after a while. We realize how uncomfortable things are
for us, but like I said earlier, we fear change, so we just live with the
uncomfortable rather that breaking free and trying out something different.

People tell me “I’m just not ready yet” or “You just haven’t
met the right one” or other variations but it all spells out W-A-I-T. Well, I’m in no hurry… but it would be great
if “I’m ready” or “Ms. Right” comes along soon…

Or maybe, I just wish I’d finally have the balls to take
that leap into the unknown. To let go
and fall…