Jason

I do believe its been long due for me to LET GO... I've been fooling myself for the longest time, thinking that we could remain as friends...Its been a while since I let go of all the pains of the past, but I've held on to all the good memories...Now I know I cant completely move on, unless I say goodbye to everything in the past... And look forward to a future without you in it...

After everything that had happened, you said you still needed me around, even just as a friend.I tried to be there for you, helped you up whenever you fell, listened when the rest of the world shut you out...I let go of the romantic love, but I loved you nonetheless. I stayed as a friend and I cared for you deeply.Like in the past, I was never perfect, but I tried to be the best for you and always wanted your happiness.But like before, it was never enough... I was never enough.

I'm sorry, I said I'll never get tired of you... I was wrong. I guess the "relentless" jason finally burned out...You told me I'm the only solid ground that you have, but still you took me for granted. Just like before.Was it because I made you feel that I'll be there no matter what?

I hate the fact that you can still tear down the walls I've built around me.How is it that you were able to let tears fall down from these eyes I've thought to have already dried out?I cant have that in my life. I've had enough.

There's so much more words that I want to say, feelings and emotions that wanna burst out of me...But what the hell... enough of this... I'm getting overly dramatic again...

Goodbye. Have a great life.

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Just like the song of Kartoon Kemistry… it all rings true…

I left UPLB in 2004 and its been two years but my heart still belongs there. The person who I am now was molded in that place… So many bittersweet lessons that shaped me, and memories that will always stay… For four years, it was home, and it still is…

I long to be there… but I get rare chances and little time to spend there… it feels all so surreal when im there, I wish I could stay. And when its time to leave, i feel as if im ripping off a part of myself whenever I go…

Its cliche’ but "home is where the heart is" and UPLB is where I left my heart…

Im missin’ so many friends right now… I swear to you guys, if only I had the time and moolah, I’d go visit you guys…

Pei-Pei… my conscience, my Devil’s Advocate, the most brutally honest person in the world to me (and thats why I love you so much!)… can’t wait to be with you again. The two weeks you spent back here were the best days of my summer. How I wish you live in the West coast instead of the East! Or better yet, how I wish you’re back here in the Philippines…

My Baby Mai… You never fail to make me smile… When im with you, I’m just simply happy… and theres nothing better in the world than that feeling… You’ve been away for quite a while and now ur back in the Philippines, how I wish we could go out more often… waaaah! why’d you have to move so far?! and mahal ng toll at gas…

My Bes… The person who can write my life’s story… She knows me deep down (with all the nitty-gritty details!) and loves me nontheless… Thanks for being with me during my last birthday! When are we goin out again? Treat mo na next time ha?! hehehehehe…

My high school ‘kada! Everyones been so busy at work (except me and emman! taena tsong! patagalan ba to sa college?!) that we rarely see each other nowadays… Its been a year I guess since we’ve last met. Life was so much simpler back then in high school…

People from UPLB… so many friendships built back there…
Brods and sisses from my orgs… I miss the meetings. activities, bonding moments, feb fair, etc…

housemates sa Ilags! we had a really messy place but it was home!

twy, you made my college life "interesting" hehehehe… no need to elaborate… and I miss talking to you… one of the smartest and wittiest people that I know… You give my brain a hard on! hehehehe…

noemz and jen, you two give me a reason to go back to lb… i really appreciate the hospitality and sweetness…

angela… spunky girl with an attitude… mean but lovable (hehehehe… ur words!) get me drunk again on a beach and lets just chill under the stars like back in puerto… oh, and do teach me how to dance… pweeese… ehehehehe… (just get me intoxicated first!)

kai!!! haaay… toxic ka kasi masyado sa work ngayon eh! kidnap me anytime!!! hehehehe…

ate elaine!!! you overwhelmed me with your love and concern… i miss the days back in villa isabel… di na natuloy balak natin sa Laiya..

joycen… a friendship that bloomed late but great nonetheless… i miss talking to you for hours and hours on the phone… i really regret not spending time with you when you were still here…

B.O.B.O specially Reg and Danz (Star City ulit!hehehehe)… I hope I could get a subject with you guys next sem… i miss your company….

SUBANOMO… i miss your noise…

waaaaah… dami pa but im getting sleepy… sowee… (wag ka tampururut if nabasa mo to tapos wala ka ha?)

Zzzzzz….