a reason to smile
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006i finally found a reason to smile again…
nevermind all the locks and deadbolts, she came in like Harry Houdini…
all the walls and boulders i placed went crashing down before her…
she melted the ice building up inside…
ah basta! getz nyo na naman siguro noh? nacocornyhan na ko sa pinagtatype ko eh! hahahaha!
sarap lang talaga ng feeling na marealize mo na hindi ka na manhid after such a long time na nagpaka-bato ka.
before, it was such a chore and sometimes even a burden to stay happy. Now, simple yet meaningful things like her smile, a text from her, a held hand, walking with our pinkies locked together, one-on-one pusoy dos, her cute attempts to make me smile when i get serious or pissed, even
her constant teasing, her chronic disease of mixing up people’s names,
and even her pout (bugnutin eh!) MAKES ME HAPPY…
i feel alive. i have a reason to wake up each day with a smile and i can end my day, lying in bed, thinking happy thoughts, hoping she’ll crash into me in my dreams.
of course there was some hesitation at first. its kinda scary leaving yourself vunerable. but what is life without risks, right?
i dont know where this will go, or will it last, but whatever the outcome may be, im just glad she stepped into my life and made me smile.
im just glad shes around. and all i hope for now is that somehow, i could make her smile like the way she makes me do…
